the storm is coming but I don’t mind

So I moved out and got a seasonal job at costco (woohoo!!) I’m pretty tired at the moment but that’s not new lol. I’ve mastered the skill of driving while dozing. I think im gonna take a art class next quarter @ spscc and some other classes to but not sure what yet-and I still gotta sign up….ugh.

but I am loving my apartment and just buying food and furniture and just all the stuff that comes with moving out and filling an apartment : ) I am super excited to get a christmas tree!

I’ve been thinking about all the options of where I want to live and what to do in school lately and really the possibilities are endless, I mean there’s nothing holding me back and I always have my fam to come back to in sheltown (what a blessing!)

I really wish I could go with mel and kristen to NY for the new years but I’m gonna be laid off at costco after christmas an am not sure if I’ll be hired back sooooo the money I saved for that time between having jobs in oly will go to a plan ticket…..so thats a bummer. But were thinking about living in chico CA next but who knows lol!

I just want to finish my classes and get new ones sleep and enjoy my christmas.

-also I wan2 eventually be able to go to church on sunday morning’s eventually but not sure where yet or how Im gonna go about having sundays off cause I usually like working sundays…..hmmm

oh and me and mel want to try out our fire place but are a little afraid that it’s going to make our apt scorching cause were roasting even when we use the oven/dryer lol!

muhahaha!

Four things…

I sent gold fish in the mail

I am in love with wearing wool socks

I hope my moving plans work out

I want to finish my quilt

Rain

 

so I started my classes and my goal for the quarter is to show up to every class, because last quarter I kinda bailed half way through. I also, went to oyster fest which might have been pretty cool (besides the fact that I hate all seafood) if we were blessed with good weather. However, it was pouring buckets outside and people were just huddling together under whatever shelter they could find. I’ve been discovering that all my pleasant childhood memories of going to fairs and bizzars and things of that sort are no more. now it seems that they have become just dirty boring places that give people another reason to get together and drink-in any kind of weather……sad

but I do have to say I like the rain. Its so cozy and it just makes me wan2 sit inside all day with friends and watch movies play cards and drink hot coco. I don’t necessarily like when it just a mist or of and on all day but I must say I do love a good down pour : )

side note: My defrost doesn’t work well at the moment so my windows are constantly getting fogged up. I figured out that sometimes it helps to roll down some windows but because it is so dang cold outside I end up shivering in a wurlwind of ice air-and sometimes rain it pretty much cracks me up.

scheming

K so this blog is pretty much me rambling just for a warning…….but I guess thats basically all I do on this wordpress thing anyways so feel free to read or ignore:

I am feeling like I’m being directed to start doing stuff with two aspects of my life while I have time to do so.

     One being my walk with God, I feel like in a lot of ways I am keeping the fact that I serve and love Christ a secret. How can I keep the love of my savior inside me because of fear. It seems like we are becoming a passionless nation blurring out the Truth and clinging to things that hopelessly try to fill up our emptiness and depression. Im not saying I need to go out and preach to everyone I don’t think Im called to that, but if I truly loved the Lord with everything I had then I think not just my life would reflect that but my mouth would speak it with the opportunities God gives me. 

     The other aspect of my life is planning and saving for my future what ever it might be. I know that although men may plan things God directs their paths, and I also believe that while we wait to see what God has in store this waiting needs to be a active waiting period. So with a few ideas of what I want to do in the future all I know for sure is that I need to save as much money as fast as I can. I keep running various ideas by my family of how I can cut cost back to the good old days where I had basically no bills and most of my checks went almost completely into savings. However, most of my ideas tend to get shot down pretty fast for one reason or another. here are some.

• get rid of my cell phone
• use my mom’s little honda to save on gas and insurance
• live outta my backpack (this one is recent and I like it but know it sounds stupid)

to expand on the last one, I just mean to walk everywhere I go-even tho it rains : ( everything is just a pleasant walk away, and if I had lots to do and had to change cause the weather I could just shove everything into my backpacking pack and get some practice. It would also be quite humbling cause I’ll pretty much look like a retard : ) but making it all the more fun experience. 

So I might not do any of these but it was pretty entertaining to think of things I could do without and who knows maybe I will decide to ruff it just for the experience. 

even if I don’t follow through it’s always fun to plan-and with planning comes praying. 

bread!

I randomly decided to make some bread yesterday:

it turned out pretty good, but a little tough. I am in need of a baking stone tho I’ve had to make do many times. But right now I’m eating a sandwich slices of this bread, and Im pretty satisfied with it.

on a separate note school starts tomorrow if Im right and Im not at all prepared but still excited to be working towards something however vague it might be.

 

just watched city of angels

I watched way too many movies today

my room is a mess

I want school to start

money sucks

well here are pics from my trip-sorry they took too long

batman voice

 

so I actually heard about this video from paul who I think saw it via Daniel, so I looked for it and thought I would share it with you.

 

I want to start a new life where no one knows my name

I think about up and leaving shelton to go somewhere where I need to completely rely on God a lot. Is this something that I should do? I’ve depended on people all my life to a ridiculous degree. what is it going to take for me to stop? I think it would be amazing for me to leave somewhere somehow, but I’ve also been realizing that I’m not one to bash the town of shelton, I like it where I am, I honestly have no problem with the weather. I like having my family around me. I like the green. I like not being a big city. I like having lots of options to go hiking or camping. I like the lakes. I like the fact that we don’t have a mall. I like going to fredmeyer and seeing my sister and my friends mom there, and seeing people from my church and other places come into my work. So can I create the challenges, new relationships, and reliance on God in the place I am, or do I need to put myself in a unfamiliar new place to experience a new fire for God?