Four things…

I sent gold fish in the mail

I am in love with wearing wool socks

I hope my moving plans work out

I want to finish my quilt

scheming

K so this blog is pretty much me rambling just for a warning…….but I guess thats basically all I do on this wordpress thing anyways so feel free to read or ignore:

I am feeling like I’m being directed to start doing stuff with two aspects of my life while I have time to do so.

     One being my walk with God, I feel like in a lot of ways I am keeping the fact that I serve and love Christ a secret. How can I keep the love of my savior inside me because of fear. It seems like we are becoming a passionless nation blurring out the Truth and clinging to things that hopelessly try to fill up our emptiness and depression. Im not saying I need to go out and preach to everyone I don’t think Im called to that, but if I truly loved the Lord with everything I had then I think not just my life would reflect that but my mouth would speak it with the opportunities God gives me. 

     The other aspect of my life is planning and saving for my future what ever it might be. I know that although men may plan things God directs their paths, and I also believe that while we wait to see what God has in store this waiting needs to be a active waiting period. So with a few ideas of what I want to do in the future all I know for sure is that I need to save as much money as fast as I can. I keep running various ideas by my family of how I can cut cost back to the good old days where I had basically no bills and most of my checks went almost completely into savings. However, most of my ideas tend to get shot down pretty fast for one reason or another. here are some.

• get rid of my cell phone
• use my mom’s little honda to save on gas and insurance
• live outta my backpack (this one is recent and I like it but know it sounds stupid)

to expand on the last one, I just mean to walk everywhere I go-even tho it rains : ( everything is just a pleasant walk away, and if I had lots to do and had to change cause the weather I could just shove everything into my backpacking pack and get some practice. It would also be quite humbling cause I’ll pretty much look like a retard : ) but making it all the more fun experience. 

So I might not do any of these but it was pretty entertaining to think of things I could do without and who knows maybe I will decide to ruff it just for the experience. 

even if I don’t follow through it’s always fun to plan-and with planning comes praying. 

I want to start a new life where no one knows my name

I think about up and leaving shelton to go somewhere where I need to completely rely on God a lot. Is this something that I should do? I’ve depended on people all my life to a ridiculous degree. what is it going to take for me to stop? I think it would be amazing for me to leave somewhere somehow, but I’ve also been realizing that I’m not one to bash the town of shelton, I like it where I am, I honestly have no problem with the weather. I like having my family around me. I like the green. I like not being a big city. I like having lots of options to go hiking or camping. I like the lakes. I like the fact that we don’t have a mall. I like going to fredmeyer and seeing my sister and my friends mom there, and seeing people from my church and other places come into my work. So can I create the challenges, new relationships, and reliance on God in the place I am, or do I need to put myself in a unfamiliar new place to experience a new fire for God?

Their words mostly noises

I am writing just to write

I need to:

• organize my music-and get rid of a lot of it
• clean just to feel in control of something
• buy my books
• pray more
• save money for something worthwhile
• go away
• break 
• heal
• move out
• fix my transcript
• find a career
• count my blessings                            

 

Im thankful for:

-my family

-my friends

-forgiveness

-new beginings

-Love

-all that God is

-all that Im not

-music

Questions:

 

• What do I hold dear to me that I shouldn’t 
• what would I do if I have a month to live
• what do I take for granted
• do I fully realize sin is a burden and righteousness is freedom
• what do I fear
• what difference do I make
• who am I in God
• what is God’s will for me

 

bag of glass!

k so why is it that every time I do a little cleaning rampage I end up with more of a mess than I started out with? In the middle of my failed attempt to clean I got distracted (just like I am now) and decided to make my window a little fun.

since I don’t have curtains on my window just this shade thing it normally looks rather plain. However, I shrugged it off to try to refocus my efforts towards my disaster of a room, but then I went to walmart (thus begins my mistake) with the plan of getting a file folder for my scrapbook paper, but I ended up getting double stick tape, ribbon, and a hole punch thing that punches out bird shapes by martha stewart’s line. To make this:

sorry the pic kinda sucks, since I still don’t have a cam I took it with my computer : )

but I actually liked the results.

all the cards are different verses from proverbs.

oh and I didn’t actually get my file folder and my efforts on cleaning have reduced to nonexistent.

but I really enjoyed finding those verses in proverbs I tend to forget how awesome the word of God is. Because I haven’t read anything in proverbs for a long while but it is just amazing how timeless God and his words are. I mean It’s just neat that even tho there is some cultural differences in the different times like washing of feet and the Pharisees but really the word of God can speak to the heart of anyone at any stage of life and in any circumstance. It might not be what we want to hear but it is truth and It may be just what our hearts need to hear to help us break, heal, forgive, repent, or strengthen. 

there is no Love that satisfies other than the perfect love of God so quit looking in the wrong places the creator of Love is not the one holding back we are.

 

just some thoughts

• helping out with the high school volleyball team is a ton of fun thanks Mer for inviting me it brings back so many memories I love it.
• I have been insanely productive today! Im thinking it’s cause I opened today @ the shop.
• opening shifts are basically the best thing ever
• my car is in need of cleaning, hopefully I get it done before I run out of motivation.
• I’m going to montana soon to see josie and tryout backpacking–hopefully I don’t get malled by bears : )
• Im really enjoying the into the wild soundtrack
• Im soar–and its about time
• procrastinating fixing various things about my car is not a good idea…..dang it
• it seems like everyone and their mother is studying Ruth–Go Ruth!!!

1 corinthians 7

k so I was also reading 1 cor lately and noticed these few verses. Then I read sue’s blog how does it feel to be different from me?  and I agreed with a lot of it. Not saying I hate marrige or anything cause I think its great, but why does everyone just expect everyone who’s anyone to get hitched? I do think that marrige in the way God intended it to be is amazing. But what about those people who don’t meet the one their meant for? Are there people ok with just not being married? 1 cor 7:1 says”….it is good for a man not to marry. But since there is so much immorality, each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband.” vs 9 “but if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.” I feel like paul is saying that it is good to not marry but if you find someone you wan2 marry–by blessing not seeking lol–then by all mean marry cause that is a Gift that God has given you (if it is pure as God intended)  so If you find someone sweet! but other than that who says you should marry, if you keep devoted to jesus that’s all that matters. vs 7 “I wish that all men were as I am (not married) But each man has his own gift from God; one has this gift, another has that.” so marraige is still a gift but one where others (certain people) can do fine without. And we need to see that Paul was fully devoted to christ so because he was not married he used this to devote everything he had to christ.

so people need to quit their ridiculous searching and try to make themselves strong enough to devote all of themselves to a life of singlehood : ) and if God blesses you with a spouse all the better. Thanks sue for your point : )

 

and where did you get the vs about-act like your not married? cause I looked for it and couldn’t find it. but i could very well be just retarded.

Love

“There is no self-interest in Love the essence of Love is self-sacrifice”

sooo……….

How can certain people just be so productive and put together all the time? I just feel like my life is so hetic and out of control all the time. I always have tons of plans to get my life in order somehow, but really they never last. Some people such as….well both of my friends josie and Angela S. just seem to always want things a certain way and order. They have a neat little schedule of things they wan2 get done everyday and It actually happens. If they plan to eat right they do if they wan2 save money they do. Am I the only one who making a zillion plans that just always fall through? It just seems odd, and a little infuriating. Maybe it’s cause I don’t rely on God enough and that having everything fall through is just a reminder that our plans are nil compared to the will of God (thank goodness)

oh well just throwing that out there : )

what to do what to do…..?

So I have come to the point where I wan2 decide what to do with my blog. Im not sure if I would like to have just one theme for my blog or not, cause I do like to having a variety of subjects and frankly if it was just one topic I think I would run outta things to write. But it would be nice to get some more ideas for what to write about…….hmmm…