love of a jealous kind–jars of clay

i built another temple to a stranger
i gave away my heart to the rushing wind
i set my course to run right into danger
i sought the company of fools instead of friends

Chorus:
you know i’ve been unfaithful
with lovers in lines
while you’re turning over tables
with the rage of a jealous kind
i chose the gallows to the aisle
thought that love would never find
hanging ropes will never keep you
and your love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind

tryin’ to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
for solace in the shift of the sinking sand
i’d rather feel the pain all too familiar
than be broken by a lover i don’t understand
’cause i don’t understand

[CHORUS]

love of a jealous kind, yeah
love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind

one hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
if i should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
and love that shames the wise
betrays the hearts deceit and lies
and breaks the back of foolish pride

[CHORUS]

love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind
love of a jealous kind

just some thoughts

• helping out with the high school volleyball team is a ton of fun thanks Mer for inviting me it brings back so many memories I love it.
• I have been insanely productive today! Im thinking it’s cause I opened today @ the shop.
• opening shifts are basically the best thing ever
• my car is in need of cleaning, hopefully I get it done before I run out of motivation.
• I’m going to montana soon to see josie and tryout backpacking–hopefully I don’t get malled by bears : )
• Im really enjoying the into the wild soundtrack
• Im soar–and its about time
• procrastinating fixing various things about my car is not a good idea…..dang it
• it seems like everyone and their mother is studying Ruth–Go Ruth!!!

1 corinthians 7

k so I was also reading 1 cor lately and noticed these few verses. Then I read sue’s blog how does it feel to be different from me?  and I agreed with a lot of it. Not saying I hate marrige or anything cause I think its great, but why does everyone just expect everyone who’s anyone to get hitched? I do think that marrige in the way God intended it to be is amazing. But what about those people who don’t meet the one their meant for? Are there people ok with just not being married? 1 cor 7:1 says”….it is good for a man not to marry. But since there is so much immorality, each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband.” vs 9 “but if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.” I feel like paul is saying that it is good to not marry but if you find someone you wan2 marry–by blessing not seeking lol–then by all mean marry cause that is a Gift that God has given you (if it is pure as God intended)  so If you find someone sweet! but other than that who says you should marry, if you keep devoted to jesus that’s all that matters. vs 7 “I wish that all men were as I am (not married) But each man has his own gift from God; one has this gift, another has that.” so marraige is still a gift but one where others (certain people) can do fine without. And we need to see that Paul was fully devoted to christ so because he was not married he used this to devote everything he had to christ.

so people need to quit their ridiculous searching and try to make themselves strong enough to devote all of themselves to a life of singlehood : ) and if God blesses you with a spouse all the better. Thanks sue for your point : )

 

and where did you get the vs about-act like your not married? cause I looked for it and couldn’t find it. but i could very well be just retarded.

Love

“There is no self-interest in Love the essence of Love is self-sacrifice”

sooo……….

How can certain people just be so productive and put together all the time? I just feel like my life is so hetic and out of control all the time. I always have tons of plans to get my life in order somehow, but really they never last. Some people such as….well both of my friends josie and Angela S. just seem to always want things a certain way and order. They have a neat little schedule of things they wan2 get done everyday and It actually happens. If they plan to eat right they do if they wan2 save money they do. Am I the only one who making a zillion plans that just always fall through? It just seems odd, and a little infuriating. Maybe it’s cause I don’t rely on God enough and that having everything fall through is just a reminder that our plans are nil compared to the will of God (thank goodness)

oh well just throwing that out there : )

what to do what to do…..?

So I have come to the point where I wan2 decide what to do with my blog. Im not sure if I would like to have just one theme for my blog or not, cause I do like to having a variety of subjects and frankly if it was just one topic I think I would run outta things to write. But it would be nice to get some more ideas for what to write about…….hmmm…

just for the record

Planning things with more than just a few people really sucks. People always freak out and make a big deal over things so that we can’t settle on any matter. Then there is always the people who “get left out” either cause the person planning it becomes spacey and maybe figure the news will just make it around, or no one actually knows what’s going on. It’s just not fun to figure out all the details and make everyone happy. Sure the actual trip is always fun and with that the more people the better but the more people to plan for makes for a retarded beginning.

I feel a change coming on!!

I get these random urges to organize things, my friends and fam probably find this hard to believe. however recently I’ve been a lot better about not leaving a cluttered trail of bread crumbs everywhere I go. I get these urges sporadically because Im finding that when things around me are organized I tend to make my life in general more organized. Sooo even with these urges I tend to fall into the routine of leaving a whirl wind behind me when Im too tired or too busy to do otherwise–this occasion is now. I haven’t cleaned my car out for over a month and close to two, and with the road trips to seattle and cheez-its all over the place a pillow running shoes my backpack paper towels and towel and various plastic bags lying on the floor it is quite the mess. then my room just has laundry all over the floor, which actually isn’t that bad. I do feel like a good cleaning is on its way and this one might last into the school year woohoo!! I love getting into cleaning rampages as long as they don’t stop mid way through and leave things even worse off. Maybe tomorrow I’ll clean woop-d-freakin-doo!!! but neat and organized lifestyle here I come!!!

The Dark Knight @ the IMAX

This was an excellent movie! Angela S. Josie and I went to the IMAX in seattle on Monday we all held out to see the movie till we could all see it on the big screen. even with all the hype when it first came out. However, somehow I was able to dodge peoples spoiler comments so I was pleasantly surprised about everything. The action was amazing the characters were great! And I love how they incorporate people choosing the right thing to do in these how even tho the enemy is destroying the world and showing all human race to be weak, there are still some who stand up for what’s right-like the prison guy on the boat “I can do what you should have done ten minutes ago” (or something like that) Oh and of course christian bail is always looking his best : )

myspace vs facebook

K so I have a myspace that I use a lot but am recently getting bored of it. I also have a facebook that I use hardly ever, cause I don’t really know how to lol. But I think I would like facebook better if I gave it a little more effort………….K so here I would normally write my pros and cons about each, however, tonight I am very tired and I need to wake up early to be at work at 6:30 (and yes leah not 5:30 lol) so I’ll save my pros and con for later try to bare the suspense *snore* lol

Goodnight

oh and I have to sleep on the couch tonight cause my aunt is staying over so lucky me…..ugh