Independence

I made lemon meringue pie yesterday funny cause we did half of it in dim light and without a mixer because of the power outage lol!!!I have been in a crafty, cooking, and other random stuff mood lately. Not sure why. But this phase and a few other things like getting a new job and quiting my other one has got me thinking. Every time I have a dilemma I have a bunch of people I can go to help me solve my problems. For a few examples:1: I am living at home2: My sister sue basically got me both my jobs3: My fam helped me buy my car4: I am taking all the same classes as my friend Angela ScottI find myself taking in new responsibilities always with help from my fam and friends……which makes me think……do I do anything all by myself without “how to” instructions from those who are dear to me?I yearn to be indepentdent with only God to lean on and then I see how I am frightened to have to figure things out by myself.I am greatly thankful for the people the lord has put into my life who have been way more than helpful, but has my fun and easy past crippled me for my future. I hope not. However, I pray that I will start to have the confidence to become independent and have only God to lean on and God to provide guidance. I see how I have turned to family and friends where I should have been kneeling in prayer to God so that He can reveal his will.How can I expect God to show me his will if I keep turning to others for guidance and do not wait on the Lord for and answer?